For the past week I’ve been crying on and off. I’ve been feeling very vulnerable, you know when you seem like you can’t be around that many people?
I felt like I needed to hide in a cocoon and never come out (you might’ve noticed it in the vulnerable email I sent you last week.)
I look at my life thought and everything is really good. I’m so grateful for the many blessings I constantly receive. I share my life with my soul mate and we are spending our Summer in our home in Vermont.
I have a magical business that allows me to work with the most amazing women on the planet and they transform their lives before my eyes. I am surrounded with people that love me and want to see me succeed.
But it wasn’t always this way.
Six years ago I was literally down on my knees about to be taken to the hospital because my embryo of eight weeks exploded in my right tube and I was bleeding internally. I almost died.
This very episode happened right before a HUGE expansion I experienced in my life…
So I knew that this deep emotions where here for a reason…But even knowing this when we go into this places, it’s not always easy to think that we will make it to the other side.
Because in the moment it feels big, like a tsunami of emotions all happening at once. Even if on the outside everything seems to be great, even if you think you already worked through it, sometimes our past comes to pay us a visit….most likely there’s a deeper layer that requires healing.
The worst thing we can do is to resist it. Oh, I’ve done that so many times!
If you find yourself there right now I invite you to keep reading…
Resisting will only make it tougher, more challenging and it will lead to self sabotage and self judgement. Which will result in you feeling stuck, trapped and alone.
Instead, if you surrender, if you allow the emotions to take their course, without the judgement and creating space for this to happen (not only put it on your calendar to spend 30 minutes a day doing it,) but really allowing it to flow through you even if it hurts, two main things will happen:
- You’ll feel the release, the lightness that comes when you “ride the wave” of emotions.
- You’ll also receive the clarity and guidance that will be instrumental for you to go into your next level with more ease and joy.
I recently started coaching this gorgeous woman who reached out to work with me in early April. At the moment she had just signed up to do a business program so even though she loved to do this Empowered Woman work (she’s been checking me out for a while,) she thought it would be a better idea to first get her business rolling.
She reached out last week and said: “I should’ve done this work first” and one hour later she paid her program in full and booked her first intensive.
For the past two and a half months she’s been in building mode, creating the structures for her new business and a signature program that she will be offering to her future clients. This was an exciting and hard work process. She almost didn’t see the light of day.
When it all was ready, she realized that she was lacking the confidence to put it out there. She also realized she’s been hiding in her business all this time because it was easier than looking at the “not so fun” places inside of herself that were calling her to pay attention.
The truth is that she was scared and felt overwhelmed.
I get it, because when we are in it, it feels like if we open the can of worms, it will never end…
But guess what? We had a two hour intensive session and the next day this woman was back to her true self again, feeling empowered and already creating boundaries with people in her life that were long overdue.
The biggest realization she had is that this is what was taking up all of her energy, having to work harder to create in her business because she was at a full emotional capacity.
All she really needed was the support to go into the dark places. She needed a little reassurance that she wasn’t crazy for feeling what she was feeling and she also needed the exact steps how to free from fear and resentment from her past that has kept her stuck.
We worked on healing energetic cords from toxic relationships that were holding her back. And now she feels lighter, more confident to being visible and sharing her truth with the world.
You might feel overwhelmed right now. Maybe like me, you’ve been crying or having self destructive thoughts.
I invite you to look within and create the space to be with these emotions instead of brushing them under the rug.
Don’t find distractions, don’t hide in your business, don’t take care of others, it’s only going to delay the process that your soul is inviting you to go through.
You are being called for something bigger. You are being invited, maybe not so elegantly, to rise. Sometimes the process looks a bit sloppy, but deep inside you know it’s time!
I realized that the reason why I was crying and feeling so emotional this week is because I’m about to go into a level I’ve been resisting (but desiring) for a long time now.
Before a big expansion, there’s always a major contraction. It’s a Universal law.
Trust the process and if you need support, reply to this email and we can find a time to connect.
It will be my honor to help you come out on the other side feeling empowered and fully aligned with who you truly are.
Sending you empowering vibes!
