Wow, today I woke up feeling a deep fear, a fear from a past experience that I thought it was resolved within me. This morning, this fear took me back 15 years…
Remember I shared with you a couple of weeks ago how I got fired for laughing? (you can click here if you missed it)
Right after that, my whole life took a deep turn.
When I got fired from corporate in Buenos Aires, I promised to myself thatI would never go back to work for somebody else. My father had taught me about how to be an entrepreneur and with my passion for design, I’ve decided to start my first entrepreneurial project as an interior decorator.
I had it all planned, I even got featured in a women’s magazine in Buenos Aires (left). Everything was amazing, I felt unstoppable, like I could conquer the world, as my desires where coming true.
Right then, my husband at the time and I moved to this gorgeous two bedroom corner apartment that we bought, top floor with a gorgeous view. Everything about that apartment was what I’ve always wanted, sunlight, magical sunset views, big terrace, plenty of space, beauty all around. And now, that I was going to work from home, I could build my office in the second bedroom, until the baby came…
Just when I thought I had it all…
Three months into that apartment, my husband wakes up one day and tells me he is not sure about us, that he doesn’t know if he really loves me anymore… and a week after, he left.
My whole world crumbled.
And with it, my beautiful apartment, my new entrepreneurial project, my desire to be a mom….MY DREAMS…and I had to start all over again, from scratch, literally.
I lost trust in the world, especially within myself. I thought it was my fault. My confidence levels were as low as they could be….just when I thought I was on top of the world.
I was 25.
Fast forward 15 years later, my husband and I just signed up a new lease to a corner apartment in Los Angeles, with a view of the gorgeous Marina, with plenty of sunlight and terraces, where I will build, in the second bedroom, my office until the baby comes and where I will get to enjoy a level of beauty, even greater than ever before… (sneak peak to your right)
As we signed the contract last night, I could feel a strange feeling, a mix of happiness and uneasiness.
This morning I woke up crying, terrified, with the memory of my gorgeous apartment in Buenos Aires and suddenly it hit me….FEAR was taking over and trying to bring me back to remember what had happened last time I went for my dreams.
The fact that I am moving to a very similar apartment was the perfect trigger of this deep fear of loosing it all.
Can you relate?
FEAR is what can stops us as women from believing and enjoying the life of beauty we desire.
Today I want to inspire you to follow these steps, the same process I do when I am faced with fear in this way. So, next time you feel FEAR show up in your life, instead of allowing it to stop you, use “it’s” energy to move forward:
Step 1: CRY IT OUT: Allow yourself to feel the fear, without suppressing it, just being. Cry, scream, punch pillows, you know what I mean? Side note: Be mindful not to take it on those around you, it’s YOUR fear.
Step 2: WRITE THE OLD STORY: Write the story, the fear, on a piece of paper, bring it to light. In this way, you become a witness of the fear and not the victim of it.
Step 3: LET IT GO: What feels good for me to do is to burn the paper where I wrote my old story. Find a ritual that works best for you. For me personally, fire is very transformative, so I highly recommend you to try it.
Step 4: WRITE YOUR NEW STORY: This is where the juice is! Write down the new story, the vision of what you desire. Write it as if it’s already happening, like a script from a movie. Your mind won’t know the difference and reading this day and night, you will see how you will start “programing” your new story.
These steps might sound simplistic, and they really are. If I am fully honest with you, it took me many tears and the help of coaches and mentors to actually today be able to come out and apply these simple steps to quickly transform the fear into my ability to receive my beautiful life at a bigger level.
Most of all, one of the biggest lessons we need to learn as women is, YOU DON”T HAVE TO DO IT ALONE. That YOU can actually allow yourself to be nourished, supported and guided so you can make your desires come true.
If you feel stuck and in fear and you know you are holding back to bring your true beauty forward, who you truly are meant to be in the world and call in the desires of your hearts, I’d like to invite you to a discovery call with me, where we can explore which areas need to be unlock and from there, set up a plan that will have you feel fully confident, unstoppable to go for your dreams and make them a reality.
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I know YOUR beautiful life is waiting for YOU!
With so much love and beauty,
Paula
PS: I have another call from the Unapologetic Beauty Call Series coming up next week. It is going to be juicier than the last one. Keep an eye on your inbox, details coming soon!
